the day of endings. 

the day of endings.

today was a long day. I realized things about myself and others. Today was the day that I finally accepted the fact that people aren't all good. I don't know if I could rewind I would. I have learned, and I have taught. I feel like a summer in a box. I was used and I realize that. It is hard to finally accept it. Love isnt what I thought it was. When you have a person you love, and they let you down. You can't forget it. You can learn to move around what happened and continue to live. But you can't forget. Not without divine intervention. and since no such intervention has occured I don't think that I am supposed to. I haven't gotten out of it what I should have. I need to sit down and let the memories flood my head, and let them drown me out. I need to learn. I have found a new interest, who is far from perfect but in my eyes just what I need. I didn't know if I could care again, but low and behold I do. I need to tell them. But I still need you. It seems that you are with me, unabling me to live. It is frightingly comforting. I can not live in your shadow any longer. I need to move on and take him under my wings. I need to embrace my life and live.

Your wings will meet mine.